​I don’t think I have ever cried so much about embroidery before, I spent 5 hours last night doing a hand embroidery of spoons making up a tartan all out of metallic thread on dissolvable fabric only for it all to fall apart when I dissolved the fabric. Now I really have nothing to show for my hard work, I feel so stupid for not taking pictures of my final piece before putting it in the water but I was just so excited to be done and to see the final piece.
When we were at uni I made the group presentation and offered to lead the presentation as I knew nobody wanted to do this and I felt like I had really let the team down, it's been a really tough few weeks so this really did just top it all off.
I am really proud of our group though as we only had 4 members at the end which had made it quite difficult to create a final piece as there wasn’t enough of us. But I am also proud of myself for standing up in front of everyone and talking, the one thing that scares me almost as much as snakes!

​Todays tutorial was quite hard, although it was hearing everything I needed to it was just quite a lot, I hadn’t had the best Easter with quite a lot of personal things happening at home and so I had begun to panic about my work and just tried to get as much done as possible but it was like I had taken a step back with the quality, so I am very pleased that sue pulled me out on it and helped me to get back on track, after speaking to her I am feeling a lot happier with the direction I am going in, after my tutorial I went to go and get some more fabric samples so that I could begin to play around with them on the mannequin. When I got back sue worked with me until we had a good concept for the final design, one I am very proud of and can't wait to submit. 

Today was spent trying to finish all of my work for the bridal buyers award, I have spent a lot of time on this and I am really happy with my end results, I have decided to do digital designs as I feel that they look more professional and also show off the fabrics in the best way.

With my work deleting its self this morning it really did break me as I had stayed up till 3.30 am working on it to make sure that it was the best I could possible produce so to see it all disappear right before my eyes was really hard but After a lot of stress I finally go my work sent off. NEVER FORGET TO SAVE YOUR WORK AS YOU GO ALONG!!!!!!! But its all over now and I am really happy with the work that I actually sent off.
I ended up using my final fabric to create the skirt on the dress as I felt that it really lifted the illustration. Now that it all done I can focus on the Givenchy brief as I still have a lot of work to do for that.

Todays tutorial went really well, my tutor gave me lots of ideas about how to improve my portfolio and also answered all our questions about what should be included and what should be avoided in our portfolios. I had been really panicking that I was getting behind but today helped me a lot as I now feel a lot more on top of everything, it also helped seeing how much everyone else had completed. With one week to go until hand in I am feeling a lot more confident and happy with my work, especially now I have finished all of the bridal work.